Taking a breather now from the last topic of 260... have been studying for the past 1 week.. though not really putting my heart and soul in it.. more relaxing than the first semester in fact.. but still, not that I dun want to, just that the mood isn't there... but of cos I know the importance and I will try my best to focus on whatever I will be reading and studying for the following one week... somehow just don't understand why is it that people always like to do things the hard way?? e.g. knowing that I will end up rushing through all my 13 weeks studies into 1, why didn't I start way from the beginning? human beings are just like to keep asking " if only this .. if only that" why do we only know how to ask but just cannot set the initial pace to do things right.... well, that's life I suppose...

Anyway, just another week of 'bitter'... strive hard Stella! you can do it!!!

Last night, while chatting on the msn with my sister, heard a bad news from her... she told me that mama (my grandmother) is diagnose with liver cancer... but was relieved when she said it wasn't at the serious stage yet and that mama is now undergoing some treatment... so just pray that she will be healthy and that she can enjoy the rest of her living years in comfort... I know this is part and parcel of life... but somehow, imagining someone close to you is leaving you forever is just something beyond words can describe... I won't say that I am a pessimistic person, in fact I am a very optimistic one... but I often imagine the day when someone really close to me pass away.... someone like my mother, father, sister, Nicholas or even Rico.. I think no matter how strong I appear to be, at that very moment and maybe for quite a long period, I will be affected.... so I keep telling myself to treasure people around me.. treasure things I have.... cos you never know when they will leave you.... and I don't want to regret only after they left.... I really wish that I can get this point to everyone out there... never take what you have for granted...

ok, talk about the second unhappy thing that happened yesterday... well, I got back the results for my assignment for 308... all thanks to my complacency... I got 6.25/10... all I can say is serve myself right for being so careless.. am really very unhappy about it.... and seeing Janice getting 9.25/10 makes me feel even more upset... we could have fare almost the same... but I guess I was just too confident that I didnt check through my work... though I felt really upset, but I keep telling myself that at least God make me realised my mistake now, so I can be more careful during the exam... and I guess this way of thinking is really right.... why feel sad over some misfortune when that could actually is your guiding light... whenever some bad event happens, they happen for a reason... either a lesson to be learnt ourselves or a lesson for others around us to learn... if you believe this, you will find yourself leading a more fulfilling life...

Be it relationship setbacks, career setbacks or even health... just look things at the brighter side and you will be enlightened.. rather than spending time to lament over things that's beyond our control, why not take the chance to learn and improve ourselves... agree?

anyway, got to return to my books now... aim to complete the last topic by 2am.. so that I can start on practising on the past year papers tomorrow.... :)

All the best to myself and to all my friends!!

Jia you Stella!